"New beginnings"

I want to have a chance to create my own Ourstory.

A story of my own... by my own accounts and perspectives.

Make this stone work out of my own hands and carve it with the tears of joy.

Through music, paintings, new ways of eating, performance, dress, dialogue circles and writings.

Im ready to begin this encuentro, this healing, these platicas y encuentros.

!Que viva el nuevo Xicano hombre!

Materialism

the materialism in society today,

In woman... In men...

Novela+fashion=materialism

Sports+spend$+creates false culture or

capitalistic culture=materialism

What constitutes beauty?

Make up? Movies? Tv shows? The

current look?

Riots on the street of Echo parke

Xican@s/Latin@s vs Hipsters

Zoot Zuiters vs Sailors

riots on the streets with the gentrificators

"I cant identify with most of the hombres in my circles"

Like Gloria Anzaldua wrote,"Im not accepted in this or that space, so I'm making a new space, a third space". Pues entonces so be it, Im creating a new space a third space tambien.

The nuevo Xicano hombre.

Because I can't identify, I can no longer be silenced because of the so called conscious hombres that are supposedly "down for a mujer". But at the end of the day they punch out their unity cards and go against everything they stand for, porque le salen lagrimas a mi corazon to know that there are hombres that "know wsup" como se dice and still hold secret meetings were they all hold the flag of machismo higher than the flag of unity and acknowledgement of their In Lak Etch's.

Saben que? I want to give an invitation to all those hombres that I organize with to come to this circle that I need help in crafting and molding that is going to create another form of discourse about the conscious hombre and shatter the stereotype. Using arte as the form to bring consciousness to his new space. Arte expression is going to be the fuel to our survival as the Nuevo Xicano hombre's. Workshops aimed at hombres, panels, community events, arte exhibits, positive loving healing non-reactionary Mc's that spit the positive and loving aspects of our journeys, the beginning of the end of traditional patrialchal Danza circles and any other ways wich we can bringin this new being into life and to the light.

Im looking forward to shaping this circulo(with the help of other nuevo Xicanos) into something that I can't even imagine for myself.

Too many of times do we have muxeres workshops about, what not to wear, and how not to look at people. This is such a perverted way of thinking if we as hombres do not have any workshops that teach us on how not too look at muxeres in a dirt way, or on why we shouldn't whistle at muxeres when muxeres want to express their bodies or simply just want to wear what ever they feel like, why not to rape muxeres, think twice before you raise your voice at a muxercita and most importantly stopping a violent act to a muxer by any person when ever you happen to see it then how do we as conscious hombres expect to end the violence to the muxeres. Its the Ometeotl that we always talk about, the balance , the Yin and Yang to bring this new sun.

These are some of the ideas that have begun to simmer in the pit of my heart and my mind. Im sure there are many nuevo Xicano hombres out there. So please break the silence and help me help each other begin this space of healing for us and most importantly to our abuelas, muxeres, muxercitas, the LGBT community and the unborn fetuses that are in incubation.

Es tiempo para decir LLA BASTA!!

c/s

In the spirit of the Nuevo Xicano hombre

In the spirit of the new conscientazion that I have begun to go through that I have tapped into because of the readings of Ana Castillo's book, "Massacre of Dreamers" and because of the spit that Gloria Anzaldua's books "Border lands". They have equipped me with the tools to analyze and break down to figure out my identity and to pin point the socialization process that we hombres have gone through living in this capitalistic system... I am searching for a nuevo identity that i can identify myself with because I feel that I cannot identify with some of the hombres in the movement.

In the organizing spaces that I preside in, there are still so called "conscious hombres" that are "down for the muxers". But when this "conscious Chicano" thats a mujer solidarity pioneer to the bone, are away from others and the organizing spaces, they act quickly and put on their players hat and go against what they advocate for. Im not saying all men but some or even most. Im trying to find a new space, a third space. The closest identity that I can get to is "the nuevo Xicano hombre". With an X.

I began to go through a transformation of my old ways of thinking as I heard the position papers being discussed in the L.A. MEChA central space in the fall of 2009. Hearing the testimonies of muxeres that were affected by this so called "conscious Chicano" made me realize how much we as student organizers have come by in our movement. And lisening the statements that Dulce told me that muxeres would have to tell new muxeres coming into the organizing spaces. "You are fresh meat companera, trucha!" "Te tienes que ponerte lista porque muchos de los hombres que estan en these "safe spaces" are usually only looking for one thing. So on and so fourth. My definition of what defined a "conscious Chicano hombre student organizer" began transforming and took on a new meaning. Don't get me wrong when I joined Danza Mexica Cuahutemoc in the spring of 2008 I noticed this notion of a "Conscious Chicano hombre" only being a "conscious Chicano hombre" from 9 to 6. I began to noticed and piece together the puzzle because of the two Chicano cabezas that lead the Danza circulo fit in this category of a 9 to 6 Chicano hombre (these kats I talk about... I will break down more in my next blog because I feel it deserves more spit).

Because of the time and circumstances that I happened to start organizing in the M.E.Ch.A. space during the fall of 08' and when I joined Danza Mexica Cuahutemoc in the Spring of 08' I started noticing the 9 to 6 Chicano and the 9 to 6 Chicano Danzante more often. I started to mix all these experiences and teachings... I had a good batch of cement and tools, reading Castillo and Anzaldua and taking a Pre-columbian Chicano studies class and I also must give credit and mention going to the Chicana feminist conference put on by the muxeres in Conscienca femenina of CSULB, this pretty much sealed the deal of what Im going to try to break down like James Brown.

Like I said, I came into the MECha space at a time when a well respected MEChista in the National level was a 9 to 6 "conscious Chicano hombre". This representative was behind the scenes being a player and lying to himself and to other about his solidarity with la mujer.

What Im trying to get at is that there is a minority of Xicano hombres that feel the need to create a circulo that will set the example to other Xicano hombres that are in the movement to treat muxeres with luv, respect, and honor. Because muxeres can talk about how hombres need break away from theyre machista ways of thinking. But we as the nuevo Xicano hombre must set the example to begin the process of healing each other by creating this circulo of dialouge and hopefully this healing process can expand and have an artistic medium. Because we are visual people and we are artistic people.

Please let me know what yall think about this blog. I have created it with feelings of luv and compassion and If I have offended anyone or anything I apologize. Im speaking with a mouth full of sweet mints and my intentions are not to disrespect.

-Xamuel

C/S